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Year 2010 Overview
Scorpios have a certain reputation for taking things a little too seriously, and to some extent you’ve earned that. The next year is going to give you new opportunities to really express yourself in new ways, and to get results from all that Scorpionic intensity you’ve been carrying around all your life. On the one hand, there will be new pressures developing as far as a lot of long-standing issues that you’ve faced for a long time, and that have been building for the last few years. New channels of communication will be opening up for you, and new ways to express yourself.

There may be a sense of deep pressure building when it comes to how you live your life and deal with the Big Picture issues. The usual problems of day-to-day living — paying the bills, dealing with relationships, making time for yourself — may merely be the guise in which these issues present themselves. In fact, with Saturn transiting your Twelfth House of hidden issues, you may find yourself confronted with people and issues that are merely your own issues in disguise. Think of it as a psychodrama where those around you are merely playing out individual psychological factors within yourself.

The good news is that no other sign in the zodiac is better equipped to stare an issue in the eye and see it for what it really is than you. Over the years, you’ve developed the tools you’ll need to not only make it through another year but to prosper in all the ways that really count.

Year 2010 Career
You’ve put in a lot of work over the last two years, Scorpio, with at least some reward for your efforts. Even in a difficult economy, you’ve shown your ability to survive almost anything. In 2010, you’ll finally be gaining some traction in your career and will begin to see results. Mars in your Career House for a large portion of the year will give you ambition, and although opposing forces won’t yield immediately, you have the determination to make the most of this newfound energy. Pressures in your home and personal life that may have distracted you from making the most of work will lighten up.

At least as important as what you do for money has to be where the money goes. This year you will see a lightening of the demands being made on your budget. Part of this is due to pure budgetary skill on your part, but much of the improvement will be due to reduced expenses. Take the time this April and May to check into possible debt consolidation or other ways to ease the burden.

Perhaps the most important change to your work and money picture will be your gaining a sense of the Big Picture much more than you’ve had in the last couple of years. Having a job is one thing; having one that you are happy with and that you find fulfilling is another one entirely. This year will bring new clarity as to your goals, and will give the drive to get there.

Year 2010 Romantic
Regardless of whether you’re in a relationship or not, Scorpio, you’re certainly going to be getting a lot of potential romantic attention this year, and you’ll be having a lot of fun with it. Expansive Jupiter starts the year in your Romance Sector, and even if you aren’t looking for a relationship, the opportunities will be there. Conditions may not have been the best in the recent past for you, but all of that is over for now. Time to cut loose! June, July and August is prime time to strike. If you’re looking for a relationship (or want to solidify an existing one), make the effort during those three months and you’ll be rewarded.

When it comes to actual total love in your life, 2010 will be better than what you’ve seen the last few years. You’ve probably learned a lot about how you fit into other people’s lives, and you’ll be able to judge your relationships more wisely as a result. If you’re in a committed relationship now, April and May will prove to be excellent. If you aren’t in one at that time, it may just be the time to kick an existing relationship up a notch, or find a new romance.

One thing to watch out for this year is irrational attachments: flings, in other words. You’ll have more than the usual urge to splurge with your affections like someone spending their lottery win. If you’re looking to avoid that sort of thing in your life, you’d better stay out from under the mistletoe in November and December.

2 days til the final day of the year! Taking Iks’ cue, I’m gonna try to recall and list down some random lessons learned in 2009.

*~* I learned how to spawn betta fish. My spawns were totally wiped out due to disease and dragonfly larvae attack, though…

*~* Life is much more laidback in Australia. Less stress, hustle and bustle. The people are more relaxed too.

*~* Speaking of Australia. It’s not cold enough to snow down under, but the winter was freezing enough to make me dread it. However I still love the winter outfit look lol.

*~* Speaking of outfits in Australia, I’m a size XXS there haha!

*~* Apologies are not sincere when it contains a curse word in it, no matter how innocent the facial expression is. Would you believe someone telling you that they’re “fucking sorry”?

*~* Flats are more comfortable than heels (duh). And lessen the possibility for cramps on the calf and/or foot, which I tend to get.

*~* My true friends can be found in Jocelyn and Ika. They support and tolerate literally everyshitthing I do.

*~* Stubbornness runs in the family. I guess that’s something that none of us can change since all of us would insist to be right.

*~* The universe has its own way to work things out for you. In its own weird and funny fucked up fated way.

*~* New moves to dance from Street Jam classes, woot! Doing things I never knew my body could do XD

*~* Mascara and eyeliner are awesome! XD

*~* I look good and ‘fresh’ in black hair lol

New puppy at Darling’s home! She’s so adorable ^^ I picked her up from a rescuer’s house. The girl found a litter of 6 puppies in the streets, the mother nowhere to be found. Hailey is a mongrel, about 2 months old. I guess she has to grow bigger before we can guess what kind of mix she is. But never mind that, she’s still the apple of my eye ♥ my preciousss… Hehe

I miss her already!

A very Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year ^^

Hope everyone is having a wonderful closing for 2009. May your 2010 be blessed with greater things

Lots of love,
Jules~

My big boss’s father passed away early yesterday morning. He has been battling cancer for a long time now. Last year, the doctor said that he only had 3 months to live. But he has hung on for over a year. Uncle was an obese old man, but in these couple of months, he has lost weight dramatically that it’s scary in a sad way. He has been suffering in pain, and finally he succumbed and died.

I attended the wake today. Initially I thought I would shed tears upon seeing his dead cold body in the coffin. But suprisingly, I didn’t. There was no pity or sadness or the feeling that he’s gone too soon, or anything like that for that matter. In fact, I felt relief for him. Ok, sure, he was not the friendliest old folk in the world (in fact, he’s the grumpy king of the crankiest). But nevertheless, nobody should go through so much pain and suffer to the point of disability. So yes, I felt relief for him. Seeing him in his coffin, cold and silent. My thought at that moment, “Finally, he is at peace”. That’s the end of his suffering.

May the Gods bless his soul, Mr Low Wah. 

PS, I don’t know if it has anything to do with it, but after attending the wake, Ron was sending me back to the office to get my car, we were involved in a minor accident where his car with hit at the rear :/ Nevertheless, I crossed over fire when I got home, and I prayed to the Goddess of Mercy. Just in case.

It’s Christmas this weekend. Have you visited the malls and see the decorations this year?

Midvalley:

1 Utama:

Sunway Pyramid:

It’s been a while now that I’ve been thinking what I want and should do with my life, career wise. And I’m still lost. I’m in a real confused state of mind

I must’ve been about age 19+ going on 20 that year, when I got my first job about 2 months after classes ended and I officially graduated. So young, right? Lol, I wished I had taken more time out before entering the worklife :P I suppose it was the middle of May 2004. This job is as a designer for ChoonGiap, a knitting company, a supplier. I didn’t expect it to be like this, the job required me to be in front of the pc most of the day and design graphic prints for clients! Looking back, I can say that my graphic sense back then was bad and amateur lol. The department was stuffy and quite near to the door that leads to the factory, lots of fiber and dust flying around. Plus the lady boss from hell who never backs us up but instead blame stuff on us when clients complain. Obviously I didn’t like the job, so after 2 months, I tried to resign. Note “tried”. My GM counter offered with a high pay raise, so I decided to stay a while more. After another 4 months, I left for good lol. I did learn a lot here. On fabrics, types of dyes and special effects for prints, etc.

And start my 2nd job as a streetwear designer at a local fashion house, Extreme. I was initially excited, cause I liked the brand. But once I went internal, I changed my mind! It’s sooo not what it seemed to be. I didn’t feel like I was doing enough as what a designer should. Not that I didn’t initiate, but I wasn’t… allowed? Ever heard of a design department that doesn’t have brainstorming meetings to discuss fresh concepts for the new season collections? Yup. And also, as a designer, I ceased getting access to critique on the print samples. I believe it was because I complained and asked for resampling almost everytime. Boss must’ve thought that I was being too perfectionist and wasting time. Hello, your supplier sucks, ok. You should be glad to have a employee so particular for detail! Not that I get along well with the colleagues anyway. I was there for about a year, I think? Then I said bye bye, cause it was such a boring job! I felt like I was wasting my time because I didn’t learn anything there. Except improving on graphic sense and AI skills.

Next I went to… Oh, Voir lol. “Woooow”, right? Nooooo. I was trying for so long to get a place here, but little did I know… Sigh! Is nothing made in China these days? Heck, even the documents are all in Chinese! It ticked me off a bit that they failed to notice that in both my resume and application form, I had written “0″ for written Chinese. “Learn la!” they said. Sure, it’s so easy to learn how to read a language, right? The vacancy read “Fashion Designer”, but the jobscope was more like a merchandiser’s. Which required lots and lots of paperwork, which btw may I remind you, are in Chinese. I felt duped! Within just one week, I fell into misery and cried everyday. I was only at the company for 2 weeks. I decided not to waste time and to heck with it.

And then? I was jobless for 2 months, trying hard looking for another job lol.

I joined Xixili mid June 2006. I was supposed to be a lingerie patterner but I had zero knowledge in innerwear! Was put under training for many months, at the same time assisting the seniors in their jobs. Being a fast learner, I was quite independent already after a year, though still under partial supervision from the senior. Initially it was fun, because everything was so new and fresh! But after I ‘graduated’ from being a trainee and officially a patterner, it started to get pretty mundane. Nothing fresh to learn anymore, just the same old tasks of patterning everyday. I guess it was alright. But the trigger came when they transfered me to being half designer. I found it quite tough, because I don’t quite have that sense for fabric patterns and laces. Being in lingerie line is good, but it’s not what I want and like. So after 2 years, I left and ‘retired’ from lingerie.

For my current job. Designer for a trading company. Or so it seems. I believe I have complained enough that I don’t need to repeat myself, right? Lol. Been here for almost 1.5 years now. And I’m itching to get out!

This is my thought right now. After 5.5 years and trying out 5 jobs, I’m tired of being in the design line. I’m still alright in the fashion line, but not so for design. I don’t know, I just suddenly felt so… drained. I’m thinking that I want to switch lines, do something else? But what? Marketing seems like a good idea, but I wonder if any company would want to hire someone with no qualifications and experience to train. I’m hoping hard, yes. Should I have another option? I’m keeping it as open as possible, but sometimes it just feels like I’m not capable enough for anything. That’s because, maybe I am…

Sigh, I just want to be doing something that makes me happy, without worrying too much about whether it’s paying me enough to survive…

Met up with my younger pet brother, Clinston, last weekend after a looong time. Things sure have changed with our lives. I’ve gotten a new boyfriend, and he’s getting married end of next month. What a suprise, but I’m happy for him and bride-to-be Hannah, whom I’ve yet to meet. Congratulations, Di!

Browsing through my old photos… Lol, oh my gods, I was kinda chubby eh! I think I’m better looking as an adult than when I was a teenager hahaha. Crap XD Ok, only because I’m so confident that I look good now, here’s a few peeks at how I used to look. Just for fun (and laughs)!

Early 2004, age 20 (Puffy faced redhead)

Mid 2004, age 20 (What kinda hair is that??)

Late 2005, age 21 (Something made me look older than 21…)

Late 2006, age 22 (Still kinda baby-faced)

Mid 2007, age 23 (I thought the hair was nice at the time)

Late 2007, age 23 (Oh hey, my face seemed sharper already)

Mid 2008, age 24 (No comment lol)

Mid 2009, age 25 (Note the eyes lol)

Late 2009, age 25 (This is me now)

Funny, isn’t it? Maturity can change the way a person looks. That’s just within 5 years! I thought I looked fine back then, but now looking back, I don’t think so! You do not want to know how I looked like in my skinny adolescense and chubby teenage years :P But it’s ok, as long as I like myself now hehe. Somehow I lost that baby fat, and I erm, grew gracefully Wouldn’t you agree? Look again below, age 20 and age 25:

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Ps, so I noticed that I’ve always had my left eye a little bigger than the right. Before or after surgery

So! I had too many unoccupied tanks from the previous fishies that died (sobs). Initially I thought of waiting for the fry to grow bigger, then put them in those tanks. But the other day, I went to the aquarium shop near my office to buy a new heater for the fry’s tank. At the same time, I went too take a look at the betta fishies there. So many pretty ones this time around! Then I decided to just choose one to keep at the office. I spent a good half an hour there just trying to decide which one. In the end, I couldn’t resist and chose 3 haha. First I took these 2 home:

 So so so veeery the BLUE! I named him Atlantic ^^

 Can you see the translucent tips? I named him Stealth!

Then the next morning, I went back to the shop to pick up the other fishy:

 Not a perfect crowntail, but I like the colour. I named this one, Solar.

Oh, my white fry got infected by some disease where all of them got clamped fins. I lost most of them within a week, and was left with only 3! Nyuuuu T_T help~ I sent 2 of them to Darling, and kept 1 with me cause it looked seemingly fine (which I named Uno lol). It was sort of like a trade lol. He gave me another 5 fry from another spawn. 4 siblings, and 1 white. After a day or two, that white one died. Aiyo it must’ve felt like an outcast ^^”’ But the remaining 4 is fine, they’ve been growing too. Then Uno looked like it was unhappy because it didn’t eat or swim much. Lonely? So I put it into the bigger tank with the 4 siblings. It was a lone ranger for a while. Perhaps it knows that the 4 are not of its own kin lol. Its fins clamped a bit (that’s why I bought the heater). I’m just hoping it’s because of the new environment and it’s in a little bit of shock. Didn’t eat much either. Must be about 3 or 4 days until it finally mingled with the others. And it’s eating! Behaving normally already, though its fins are still clamped. Luckily the 4 did not bully Uno