Came morning, and I went to the clinic after a quick breakfast. It wasn’t my regular doctor’s shift =_= A little annoyed that she didn’t know what was wrong. Even suggested constipation or ovulation. Whaaaat? Well, whatever it was, all I got was painkillers. Which, by the way, didn’t work. It was so mild that Mom called the painkillers “childish” lol. What a Sunday! Napped in the later afternoon because was lacking sleep badly from the restless night. Was hoping to sleep more comfortably that night, but no. Not as intense as the night before, but still the pain persisted. At least this time, there was one position that was painless.

Monday morning, woke up for work. Oh, the pain! It was gone! Suddenly, just like that, yippee! I had never been so glad to get up and get to work before lol. Yea yea yea, Monday blues and all that, but I was just glad that the pain was gone XD I was worried that I might have to go to the hospital or something, that would not be my idea of fun… Phew!

Then there’s today. Tuesday… Sigh. Morning started feeling like one of those days. Then the mood improved when I met up with Mark for lunch and Starbucks. Good to catch up again with him After he left, I stayed a bit more for some retail therapy by myself. Not a good idea to go shopping when you’re bloated, you just seem to look fat in everything lol. Wanted to add some colour to my wardrobe, but ended up buying everything in black :/ ah well, just so happens that the black ones are the nicer ones lol.

That was that, and made my way home. That’s when it happened… It had rained before, so the road was kinda wet. I was on the bend from Sprint into Duke. Then I lost control of the car, totally panicked that the car swerved right more than I turned, and got really near to the divider. I made a slight adjustment to the left, and again it swerved more than I turned, almost hitting the car in the next lane. Avoiding collision, once again I adjusted a little back to the right side, and again the car oversteered. BAM! I hit the divider T_T

I’m ok, it was only a minor accident between the car’s right front corner and the divider. A dent, some paint scraped off. But I was shaken enough… I stopped at the side of the road for a good 15 minutes, just to calm down, before I proceeded with my journey back home. I got home, explained the accident to my parents, and went to chill in my room. Lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, I thought about what happened. It was lucky, to say the least. It could’ve been much worse. Being at the bend, it was quite dangerous for me to be stalled at that area. Oncoming cars couldn’t see me and I could’ve been hit. Who knows what the damage might be.

To the car.

To me.

I started crying for no actual firm reason. That got me thinking about the things that I want to do/say, but the time has not yet to come. Like finally seeing my sister get married. Seeing my brother graduate. Following through with Ika as she succeeds as a writer. And so much more. What if I never get my chance to do so? Oh, the sort of regrets I would have. Especially the things/words that I’ve been holding back on. Things that I could actually do something about now. Like go travelling. And family days where everyone is together in the same country. And more heartfelt talks with my chicas. And telling him about how I feel about him…

~ She has a night light. Yeah, seriously lol.

~ She gets walked not once, but twice daily without fail, unless it’s raining.

~ Her Mama baby-talks and sings to her during her weekly bath.

~ At 13kg, she still gets carried in Mama’s arms.

I need some ketchup the next time ^^ maybe I would wanna try cheese-stuffed patty hehe.

Extroverted, energetic, resourceful and adventurous, you are impatient and hungry for the taste of life! You’ll approach many forks along your path, and you’ll welcome each change as a new opportunity. Change is the name of the game for you, as is championing freedom. You are a born progressive — forward-thinking, liberal and super resourceful. You are also active, daring, non-conventional, unpredictable, and attracted by physical senses and indulgences. Pragmatic and opportunistic, you can be very persuasive. You will succeed in any career that calls for energizing power rather than routine.

I find it rather accurate, don’t you think so?

Past: I was…

A Brownie girl.
A taekwondo martial artist.
A yoga practitioner.
A skinny tomboy.
A chubby teenager.
A goth, a punk.
A redhead.
Boycotted and lonely in primary school years.
Stupid and naive.

Present: I am…

A chinese buddhist female.
A Scorpio born in the year of the Rat.
A daughter, sister, goddaughter, niece.
A chica, angel, pet sister, friend to many.
An ex-girlfriend, ex-friend, rival, enemy.
A smitten kitten.
A lingerie patterner, fashion designer, graphic designer.
A failed business owner.
A blogger.
A guitarist, a dancer.
An ok cook and baker.
A mini plushie maker.
A pool player, a spin bowler.
Average built, boyish, slouched with scoliosis.
Fair skinned, freckled.
Adventurous with hairstyles.
Pierced and tattooed.
Going through QLC.

Future: I will be…

An experienced senior lingerie patterner.
A girlfriend, fiancee, wife, mother.
A successful business owner.
Getting Lasik treatment.
Financially comfortable.
Travelling the world.
Visiting siblings in Melbourne regularly.
Owner of Suzuki Swift.
Older and wiser.

In terms of work, I think I’m finally settled. That’s the end of job hopping for me! At least for the moment lol. In average, I’ve had one job per year. That is too much! Finally decided that returning to this company is best for me in terms of career growth and value. So that’s done! But with the matters of the heart, that’s a different story lol.

Being in mid 20s, it kinda feels like I’m in the middle of nowhere. Neither here nor there. Old enough to know better, too young to give a damn. Been through enough shit to learn the lesson, but still can’t resist the temptation for more trouble. No matter how you try, you can’t cage a phoenix lol. Within a decade of being in the dating scene, guy after guy, drama after drama, jerk after jerk. It’s like a freaking crash course to date every type of men there is. The clingy one, the geek with low EQ, the intellectual one, the old one, the crazy fun but unreliable one, the vain ah beng, the mute nerd, the one with the psycho girlfriend, the married charmer, the con artist, the cunning liar… Yup, been there, done that. I remember all their names. Damn, I sure got a bunch of love life stories to tell lol. I’m not exactly proud of it, but I know better than to regret my own actions.

But I think that I’ve grown out of that phase. At least I hope I have. I’m more certain in what I would want now, and had enough of just going for it even though it didn’t feel right. I’m too old to be hasty in decisions, to push it when it’s not right. I must admit that there is someone on my mind right now. It’s rather sudden as we were nothing but platonic all the while. Now I fear for my heart lol! Especially when I’m not quite ready for anything serious just yet. Taking it slow. But then again, I can’t be too slow cause he’s a great catch. What if some other girl captures him first?? Sigh, the worst thing about liking someone in a special way is not knowing if they feel the same.

But then again, I just realised the difference of this crush and my previous crushes. I don’t get that urgency to need to text/call him all the damn time. Yes he’s on my mind, but it hardly distracts me from my daily routine. I excitedly anticipate for our next meet up, but I still manage to keep calm about it. The thought of him makes me smile and puts me in a good mood, but none of those preteen frenzies. (Though I admit that I get so smitten and giggly when I talk about him lol). I do like him a lot, but I don’t want to push it, and just laying back on it. I’m able to let go while still hanging on. A text going unanswered just meant a big long sigh, then the day goes on. An eventual reply would mean an ear-to-ear grin for a long time. Ahh, the simple things in life could mean so much. Oh dear lord, I’ve grown up! XD

Mom: Oh, Julie cut her hair again.
Sis: See see!
(Mom called and I jogged over to the front of the webcam)
Sis: Oooh!!
Bro: Waahahahahahaaa!!
Me: Woi~!
Bro: What? I’m not laughing at you. (Snickers)
Me: =___=
Sis: Nice la, nice.
Me: (Ruffles hair with fingers, unconvinced)

My brother is such an ass XD

Spent Saturday chilling at home. I love non-working Saturdays! First thing in the morning, take Roxiie for her morning walk. Morning walks are so much nicer than evening walks, because the weather is still sort of cool. Then decided to make potato omelette with minced pork for breakfast. I have a thing for omelettes lately hehe. Enjoyed the gourmet breakfast while watching Coraline on HBO. Finally managed to watch it, been meaning to for a long time! Took a power nap, had a peanut butter toasted sandwich lunch, and spent some time playing the electric guitar.

That night after dinner, went out for a drink with someone. A little ticked that it was so last minute, but nevermind. I suppose it was the universe’s hint for me that it wasn’t right. True enough, I can’t explain it, but my gut feeling just told me that something was off. Feel kinda bad about it, but what can I do about it, right? In any case, I saw a few little red flags that it won’t work out, and I just don’t wanna waste anybody’s time trying to pursue something that doesn’t feel right. At least now I know instead of just wondering the what-ifs. Now, time to move forward!

Sunday was nice. Had omelette for breakfast again while watching How I Met Your Mother marathon on Starworld. Gave Roxiie her weekly bath, and since my clothes were wet already, I decided to give my car a much-needed wash. How productive haha. Rested a bit and then got ready to go out and meet Jocey for lunch. Updated her with a few things that she’s been missing, and we carpooled to Pyramid to hunt for a baby gift for our pet nephew’s full moon dinner that night. We didn’t take long to find a nice hamper, so we went for quick round of shopping to get stuff we need. OMG megasale! Wrong timing, we were kinda broke haha. But ended up buying more stuff that we didn’t intend to anyway Ahhh girls will be girls! We went nuts at Sasa, you won’t believe it. Suisse Programme makeup foundation, Skin Doctor face cream, and an eyelash serum, for only RM75 in total! Don’t tell me that it wasn’t a MUST-BUY moment XD

Left for Jaya One a little earlier so that we could chill at Starbucks before the dinner. We had about an hour to kill lol. The dinner was at Overseas Restaurant, about a dozen tables to celebrate the full moon. The food for the full moon course meal was different from the typical wedding course meal. But not bad, nonetheless. As always, baby Ricardo is so adorable ^^

Oh, funny thing happened at the end of the day. After dinner, Jocey drove us back to my car before we went home. Just a few minutes after driving off in our own cars, I realised something important and immediately stopped at the bus stop and hit the hazard lights to give Jocey a call. I hollered, “My stuff in your car!!!” Haha, she had to wait for me in front of Summit as I made a detour there to get my stuff. Aiyo, sorry Darling XD

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