Met up with Jo just now after work for dinner. I think this was the first time since she came back from UK that we were out together chilling just the 2 of us. So fun! I really missed having times like this with her. It’s so rare nowadays cause we’re both busy women juggling work and social life. Furthermore, her family moved so far away, it’s not as easy to meet up as it used to be. Last time I could just drop by her place anytime to hang out. Now? Way too far, man!

I don’t recall any one time that we went out together that we didn’t laugh ourselves silly XD If only Ika were there too, then it’ll be even more silly! Can’t wait for next month when we celebrate Ika’s birthday over a simple intimate dinner, just the 3 of us. Sigh, I love my honies ^^ I kinda miss the good ol’ days when 3 of us still lived in the same town. We’ve all moved away now, far apart from each other. But I’m grateful that we still managed to keep in touch and still be as close as ever! Yes, BFFs lol!

I’m having mixed feelings about my job right now. My boss expects everyone to work cause they want to work, not work just for the sake of working, or else you just might as well not work. I dunno, I might be doing just that. Having to work, just for the sake of having a job. I’m not like some people who still can afford to pass the days without needing to earn to survive.

Wouldn’t it be really nice tho? If I could afford to quit the day job for good, and just focus on my businesses. I used to have a little energy left after work for working @home, but this job has the most fucked up working hours that had me finish dinner as late as 9.30pm! By then, I’d be too lethargic to work anymore… I’m mentally too tired. Weekends? Hmph. Having to work EVERY Saturday til 2pm doesn’t help one bit.

I am expected to dedicate my life to this job. Everything I do… Everything I see, hear and feel… It has to be related to work. So far I have not done that, because I have too many things to do during my off-work time. I already have too little spare time as it is, and I’m supposed to use that for work still?? I need a LIFE!

No no no… Too much to do to dedicate my life to the company… If this goes on… Sigh I still wonder if I made the wrong choice… I thought I was finally starting to adapt, but sometimes I still get that feeling that this is a place where I might be unhappy again. Sure it’s nice that everyone’s “family” here, and we have freedom to a certain extent. But what good is that? Cause if you ask me, having SOME rules would be nice. Just small simple rules like SMOKE OUTSIDE! It sucks when I come home everyday with the smell cigarrette smoke in my hair >.< Working here might just screw up my health even more…

Did I mention that I’ll need to travel? Not just driving out to clients’ places, but even out to HongKong and China. Ugh… Driving out for meetings with clients every other day I can take. But I’m not all that willing to travel to HongKong and China. I know, you’re all calling me crazy for NOT wanting to go. Heck, it’s only the beginning of the busiest couple of years for me, and I’m not sure if I can afford to go on overseas trips. Not just the money part, but also the time. I already have too little time as it is, I’m not sure if I can just drop my plans to fly off for 2 weeks. Weekends are all the time I have and I don’t want to lose that as well.

What should I do, What should I do… Going to HongKong HQ seems like a must for everyone in the company. My colleague who’s been working here for only a year has went there for the 3rd time already. 3 times in a year! That often! How can! 

What will happen if… I were to refuse?

All’s well, ends well? Perhaps. For the worse or better, only the gods know. 

Recently I realised how fragile friendships can be. One wrong move, and that’s the end of it just like that. You try to mend things, but what if both parties don’t see eye to eye about a certain something? Then there’s no point anymore, right? Yes, everybody’s different and each person’s got their own opinions. But what if it goes out of hand to the point that they’re lashing out on each other? Then the ugly truth surfaces and it hurts both parties. Accusations, blaming, flaming… Whatever was the root of the problem, there’s no turning back anymore when no agreement is reached.

Maybe it just wasn’t the right combination for a lasting friendship. What was missing was perhaps the mutual understanding that exists in all relationships. Just pity that of all the things, it had to end this way. This pathetic silly way that I could never accept. Not from you, not from anyone. I forgive you but I will never forget what has happened.

I bid you goodbye, and all the best for your future. We may still be friends, but ‘just’ friends, and it will not be the same anymore.

Bad traffic jam on the way home from work today. Practically the whole stretch on MRR2 was badly congested. I have a bit of motion sickness, and today was the first time that I got carsick from my own driving lol. Yes it was THAT bad. Plus I was so hungry that I was starting to get a gastric attack. Could literally feel the acid building up… It took me one whole bloody hour to reach home. By that time, I was ready to vomit already. Ugh! Friday traffics!

He did it again!!!

This time it was a REAL suprise cause he didn’t even sms me at all for the whole day. I just assumed he was too busy and he might even be outstation or something hehe. Really puts a smile on my face It’s nice to see the love note after a long day at work.

We decided to go to the Eye On Malaysia ferris wheel thingie cause apparently it’s gonna be gone soon, moving to Malacca apparently. We’ve been meaning to go the whole of last year but kept forgetting and stuff. Luckily they decided to extend it til end of this year’s Merdeka hehe. So anyway, FINALLY we got to go. Got a bit of motion sickness, but nevermind, it was still a nice date

The many colours of the Eye:

So cool, right? It changes colours! Those are MY photos, btw! I didn’t take them from the official gallery lol. OK la, kan, my skills? =P

It’s just one of those days where I’m feeling bored+lonely+stressed for no apparent reason, and what is it that I wanna do? Nope, not sleeping, not fucking (lol). All I feel like doing right now is to have a group of my closest friends together, and we’re out somewhere having a drink and chilling. Alcohol or caffeine also ok. Speaking of alcohol, it’s been too darn long without my favorite Snakebite from Finnegan’s. I miss it!!!

One bad thing about this job is its working hours. Having to end a day’s work at 7pm, I lose the spare time to go run after-work errands and stuff before I head home. I used to be able to do these after work ends at 5.30:

1) Get a haircut/colour
2) Quick round of shopping for stuff I want/need
3) Errands like collecting stuff from shop, buying essentials, etc
4) Window shopping to chill and have an icecream
5) Meet a friend for a quick coffee/tea

I can’t do those anymore cause work ends too late :(  Sigh!

I wish I have friends nearby, so that I could call them up anytime for a quick drink. Mamak also can la. For those long days at work where you just wanna chill at night with friends instead of just rotting alone at home. My honeys moved so far away~! Jo in Klang, Ika in Shah Alam, HueyPeng in USJ (soon even further)… I can’t wait to move to Puchong, then maybe I can see my honeys more often. You know, since I’m a little closer already by half an hour lol!

Ooh, what I like about this job is that there may not be a staff price for the products, but we get to keep the sample pieces for free XD Today my boss just gave me a nice black hooded jacket from Diesel ^_^

After some thought and many weeks of abandoning working on Buibui’s online store, I’ve finally decided to follow everyone else by using Blogspot to post products to sell. This is the new link:

http://buibuidesigns.blogspot.com/

Do visit the shop… I have promotions and a stock clearance going on~!

I think I’m starting to adapt to my new workplace. I’m not feeling “great” about it yet, but yeah. I’m doing “OK”. I could be working better tho, but I’m still having trouble adjusting my mind back to streetwear from lingerie. I know I did better when I was in Extreme, so come on already, let’s switch it back! Boo to lingerie!

Besides… I figured that I have other problems to worry about, so I’m not gonna dwell in and whine about a bad job. I’ve got a new home to purchase and a long list of to-do that comes with it. So there!

Went for my first paintball game last night. Played 3 games of Kamikaze and I got hit at the last game. I sneaked up on this girl from behind. I would’ve gotten her right on, but she turned around and shot at me a couple of times, hitting me on the top of my head, my face, and my right hand. You know why? Cause those people watching yelled, “BEHIND YOU!!!!!”. Can you all just shut up~! Nobody warns you like that in war, man! I blame you! *rubs head* oww… Talk about a direct head shot, man… Luckily I was wearing a bandanna, or else… There goes my hair! Eww…

All I feel is a bruise on my head under my hair, so that’s nothing much. Check out my hand~!

And that was fresh! Imagine what it looks like now. All black and blue *whines* Why the right hand~!!

But overall… WOOOOOOOOHOO~!! It was FUN~! Would do it again tho XD But with people who could play properly with guts and common sense (to avoid spoilsport princesses and aimless&ganas shooters). And this time, in the early morning. Night games fog up the masks too quickly. I was partially blind most of the time lol!

 I left work today as usual… Walking to my car, minding my own business. Then I saw something stuck on the driver’s window on my car. What is that???

And then…

On closer inspection…

<3 <3 <3 ~~~!!!

Anyway, he dropped by cause he helped me collect my phone from the service centre, and he didn’t tell me beforehand that he was coming. Cute or what?? And he was parked somewhere that I couldn’t see, so I had to call him to find out where he was hehe. I love my honeybunbun ^^